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...I met you...

For the very first time, I met you, during my college/ my single period,

I had a crush on you though I knew nothing about your insight.

After seeing your cold face and smoking habit, I got disappointed.

We met a few times after, wonder why I longed for your attention, and never got it. Do you remember how we greeted? Simply hi and goodbye.

I thought about you every time we met.

Your image faded for a very long time since I had no chance to see you.

I went on a date after, a very long date, 4-5 months, with a guy, it didn't work out (after dinners, movies, shoppings, didn't even dare to kiss; I gave him a hug, first hug and said goodbye). Frankly I met many male friends, I got crush on many of them, but none of them got me out of being single due to my ideal man expectations. 

Was it roughly about a year later, we met again?

We went out for dinners, we wandered the city – I felt all nervous and thought you liked me. However, you didn’t give me any sign (you told me you did; too bad I couldn’t feel it). Therefore, I thought we were just friends, good friends. Being friends with you was great! A very friendly and funny guy!

Then I went on another date, you knew about it, it didn’t go well after...two weeks!? And I decided not to look for any relationship.

Few months after, you told me you liked me and how you felt about me. My crush on you at this point was gone and I didn’t know what to say. I was all confused; and I rejected.

We continued being friends, bizarre!

And for the very first time, I went to the beach with a guy, you, alone! My first love story began. 

I was 22 years old, I wish I started younger because love is so beautiful!

Knowing there is no 'promise' on our relationship, whatever happen tomorrow, I won't regret.